you’re an amazing person who has affected my life so much. i’m so glad that i became such good friends w. you in 8th grade and evn tho we have grown apart a little, i’m glad we still make time for each other. you’re so important to me and you taught me so much. you also kindof made my fear of feelings concrete, though aha because liking eachother/dating was an emotional rollercoaster w. you. you were so confusing and never told me what was on your mind, which just made things harder. idk. i guess i’m guilty of that a little too. hopefully i can stop being so afraid of feelings ha, but either way, i’m glad i still have you in my life. ;-* wuv ya
your friend came into michael’s once and told me about how you’d both been in the day before and you weren’t in my line, but were talking about me. you should come back in and say hi to me. you sounded nice haha and i’m always up for new friends :)
i’m excited for you to act. happen. i always get such mixed reactions about what my major is. people are either like “zoology? that’s rly cool!” or “that’s random, why would you pick that???” and i just wish evryone could understand how excited i am to evn have the teeniest tiniest chance of working w. wild animals. that’s my dream. i want to work @ the zoo and look after the tigers, bears or wolves because those are my favorites. i want to go to africa and asia and study animals up close. i want to be stationed in the rain forest, at a wildlife rehabilitation center, where i can help injured animals and send them back into the wild (i remember seeing an orangutan rehabilitation center episode on animal planet once and never getting over it ha). evn marine animals, and i’m fucking terrified of drowning and the ocean, just because there’s so much unknown. but, i would love working w. dolphines or beluga whales or seals or sea turtles. i feel so weird rambling on about that stuff because no one evr seems to appreciate it as much as i do. i just wanna be around animals and learn about them and hopefully, save them. hi dreams, i’m glad you’re getting closer day by day
you’re my sister and my best friend. you get on my nerves sometimes, but there’s no way i’d evr wanna be w/o you. you’ve been a great older sister - you’re always there to listen to me if i’m upset, no matter what foolish thing it might be about. and, you always give such good advice. you understand me so well and i feel like i understand you well, too. idk, it’s hard to sum up our relationship or how i feel about you. i just love you. i’m so lucky that i got a sister like you, who i can be so close with. you’re so creative and unique, which i’ve always admired about you….and how much more outgoing you are than me! i can’t believe you’re moving to seattle. who knows when i’m gonna see you =/ i wish you were around more or i could come visit you or you could come visit me @ school. i miss you enough as it is, i don’t wanna be seeing you evn less. but oh well, i’m glad you’re moving out there because of the bigger art scene, because then maybe you’ll get your stuff put in more shows or more noticed. you did so well on your own. love/miss you, as always
i guess i could still consider you a crush, but i’m not sure if you evr really were because emotions confuse me. i’m best off avoiding anything besides happiness/anger, and evn that gets me in trouble sometimes. i haven’t talked to you in maybe a week and a half, which is my fault, for sending you that awkward message. i’m sorry i ruined what i thought was a pretty sweet friendship. i don’t kno if i evr liked you as more than a friend - but i guess you’re the closest thing i’ve had to that, lately. i just liked having you around and knowing i could flirt w. you and it wouldn’t have to develop into something else because that scares me - and it would be okay. i miss having you to talk to all the time - sorry i freaked you out a little, it freaked me out too =/ i’m angry @ myself for making a complete fool out of myself - and i still donno how to feel about it all, but i’m not rly upset either. just upset i lost a friend.
we used to butt heads a lot, but you’ve become my backbone over the past two yrs. we’ve known each other since 7th grade, which is weird to think about, because after we were good friends that year, we pretty much stopped talking to each other and only hung out sometimes because of mutual friends. hanging out w. you so much my junior/senior years has been awesome - you’re pretty much always up for anything and i’m glad i get to be right by your side. we’re drunken dancing partners, “mommies” to each other when someone needs to be looked after and just, best friends. i’m so glad i can call you my best friend - and i hope you kno i’ll always be there for you, evn if we lose touch (but we better not).